Perfectly imperfect but I’m worth it.
Struggling a lot with self-respect,
Go to great lengths and to my pride – protect.
Come at me with your suggestions,
Accusations of past aggressions.
The broken parts of me – obsessed with.
Amazing how my mind is messed with.
You’d think their words would roll right off of me,
But somehow they lay heavy, on top of me.
Can’t breathe. Can’t dream. Can’t win.
Defeated, distraught; now count to ten.
Asleep like a sedative,
These wrestlings, repetitive.
Engaged, but enraged.
Not with the Bride but with the Groom.
In my heart I haven’t left enough room.
All about me and not about Him.
Recognizing the need for humility,
Mentors and accountability.
Seeking that stability,
Prayerful over my ability.
Hopeful that this frustration,
Continues to lead toward maturation.
King of Kings clashing with the Prince of Death,
Spiritual warfare that takes my breath.
Feel my heart pounding inside my chest,
No sleep for the weary and little rest.
And yet those green eyes meet my blues,
All she has to say is, “I choose you.”
“I love you and you’re worth it,
Nail it on the cross, you’re not worthless.
Handsome and strong,
You write your own song.
Passionate melodies and fierce beats,
Not another man for me on the streets.
You’re mine. I’m yours. And we’re His.”
I’m grateful for all of this,
Answering that call of His.
She melts my gruffness,
Increases my toughness.
Propels me and compels me,
To face my fears and never flee.
And chase the fear of failure back to Hell,
Cling close to God and each other and we’ll do well.
So yes – I’m scared and yes, I’m beat.
But with her by my side, we will defeat.
Overcome and prayerfully conquer,
Anything that’s kept us at arms-length from the altar.
Two separate hearts, but better together,
Our love, a true treasure.
Indebted to the debtor,
But not in debt.
Rich in love and beauty,
So many joyful tears,
Over this last year.
This girl is too good for me,
But she’s not.
She’s just what I need,
Amazingly crafted and attractive.
God’s gift from Himself to each other,
I love her.