Frustration: Let’s Get REAL!

One of the many difficulties I had grasping the concept of following Christ with EVERYTHING that I had early in my college-career was the fact that all of the so-called Christians seemed to have everything together. There was NO WAY that I could be like them. Not a chance…I mean, I had problems. And they all seemed to hold their own. They attended their campus ministries, had regular church attendance, had Scripture memorized, knew all the wise things to say in various situations, and were even looked up to by a decent portion of the student body.

Well, as an upperclassmen within the body of believers on the K-State campus, I refuse to be viewed as that Christian that has it all together. In my own opinion, the body of believers must remain authentic and real in all they do. There is an unstated pressure to be perfect; to constantly model the values of Christ without fault and if we do come to fault, then we better brush it under the rug and keep smiling. Let me make something clear before continuing…I love Jesus Christ! There is not a single doubt about that. Without Him as my LORD and Savior there is nothing worth living passionately for; at all. Nothing else will satisfy like His undying, unconditional, perfect, unconditional; love, grace, and mercy. BUT just because I am a follower of the Most High God does NOT mean that life suddenly becomes perfect. Nor does it require that even as an individual that is now slightly older and “more experienced/wise” than my classmates, that I pretend to be perfect.

So, let’s get REAL! You’ll notice that an undying theme within my writing, speech, and person as a whole is the concept that being authentic is the more valuable asset an individual can have. If you’re doubting; then tell your friends that you are! If you don’t believe you’re saved; then why put a front like you are? If you don’t have a conviction on a certain set of “Christian values” (drinking, smoking, movies, etc); then don’t pretend that you do (I’m not currently stating my position on any of the aforementioned; just saying that we should be REAL. Don’t PRETEND). So let’s do this thing! Let’s get real.

I am currently very frustrated. For those of you that have been around me the past few days; I’m NOT frustrated with you. But I am frustrated with myself. Oh so very frustrated. Romans 7:19-21 says, “For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it. So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me.” I would say this verse does an excellent job portraying the current state of my mind and life. I am well-aware of what I need to be doing, the steps to take to defeat sin, and to live free from the bondage of my own hurtful thoughts but the battle against my flesh is never-ending.

Does this mean that I am doomed to a life of failure? No…Peter, who is revered as the rock that the church was built on, struggled. In fact, he denied knowing Jesus three times in one day! Before the Holy Spirit revealed Himself to Simon (Peter), he was a slanderous, envious, murder of Christians. How on earth could a man of his nature be considered worth of building the church in which we now worship Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior? And then to add the cherry on top, as a son of the Most High God, Peter DENIES His Savior, denying ANY association with the man whatsoever. He’s still saved.

It is BY GRACE that I have been saved. It is BY GRACE that Peter was saved; along with the rest of the 12 disciples, the majority of which became martyrs for their belief in Jesus Christ. I pray that someday my faith will be that strong. Similar to the faith of the young high school students at Columbine High School that stood up for what they believed in at gun-point. That’s faith!

Okay, back to my point, I am not perfect and I am frustrated. I’ve been poured into by countless people, I’ve been raised in a household that took me to church, furnished each of us with a Bible, displayed biblical values, etc and I am still NOT perfect and I am still frustrated. Why?

I’ll tell you why: My GPA is pathetic compared to what I am potentially capable of from observing my high school GPA and my previous comprehension capability. My weight is dreadful. At 6’3”, I have some room to be big, but I shouldn’t be the monstrous 270 lbs that I am. I’m EASILY 60 lbs heavier than I was as a 6’2” high school graduate almost 4 years ago. I know the detrimental effects of sin; yet I still go there. I’m convicted and have even written and taught that you either love God and hate sin or you love sin and hate God. But there are still days that I decide that I love sin more than I love my Savior!!!! If there were ever a time I’d like to cuss myself out due to frustration, it’d be now. One more reason, would be that I’m SURROUNDED by people that love and care about me but I will often choose to isolate myself, which leads to depression and far too much time to remember my own flaws.

So there ya have it…Friends, family, followers, readers, and whatever other audience I am potentially forgetting. I am not perfect. I am frustrated, but I am a believer in Jesus Christ as my LORD and Savior. I cry. I love. I sin. I fear. I struggle. I fight. I lose.

This leads to the next chapter of my learning process as a believer though…as mentioned in “The Battle: Dying to Yourself”, I mentioned that the personal pronouns such as “I”, “Me,”, “Mine,” etc were detrimental to us dying to ourselves and allowing Christ to dwell and live within us. So, I will close with a request. Pray that Justin Meyer dies to himself.

Jesus Christ of Nazareth was crucified, buried, and pronounced dead, but He conquered death and was victorious over sin when He rose from the grave!!! If Christ has the reigns, if Christ takes the flesh that I have and uses it for the glory of His Kingdom, then Christ WILL be victorious and I will have been saved from myself. THAT is salvation. That is the truth of the Gospel. That is what makes 2 Corinthians 5:17 possible.

Blessings Family!

P.S. I encourage you to join me in this battle of dying to yourself and allowing Christ to live within you. It truly is a never-ending battle until the day that we are sanctified with Christ upon His second coming, BUT we can experience, freedom, and victory within our lives. It won’t be glamorous, perfect, or pretty. There will be pain, bumps, bruises, and the occasional extra 50 lbs of flesh that needs to be lost. But ask yourself…have you find anything better? Has sex fulfilled you? Has alcoholism made you happy? Do drugs make your life better? Are you saved by self-infliction or self-glorification?

15 thoughts on “Frustration: Let’s Get REAL!

  1. Justin,
    Have you ever heard of a program called, (Celebrate Recovery)? It is the biblical approach to the 12 step program like “AA”, basesd on the beattitudes of the Bible, it is for those who seek freedom from all of life “hurts hang-ups and habits and it is a nationwide organization(mby world wide idk). I got a lot from this 1 year study commitment, although I was not able to stick it out the whole year as it got too much for me to deal with and I needed to stop for a while, but check out their website because I think that would be an excellent place to expand your understanding and wisdom on the inigma of the self! God bless -watw

    1. I didn’t mean that to sound like I was saying you need help here join a support group, I am sorry! I just thought that you are so accepting and feel called to minister to people who do need group therapy, although, we all need a bit of it fro time to time dont we now? But that is kinda the point of this organization, we all have hurts hang-ups and habits that we need freedom from…….right? lol…amen?…take care thanks Justin, hang on your help is on the way my friend! -watw

    2. Sounds interesting. Don’t believe I have the time for a one-year commitment to anything though. And I’ve got a pretty solid “support group” of others around me that are helping me through my struggles. The point that I was attempting to make by writing this was was displaying a more transparent side to me. Recently, I’ve heard so many people who want to believe and/or need redemption say that they don’t think they can measure up to the Christ-like standards that they’ve seen me and other Christians represent, etc. So I can’t just write about joy, victory, redemption, and sanctification. I’ve got to display the weaknesses of myself in order for people to get a true grasp on how great God’s grace is. I will ALWAYS write about the hope I have. There is always hope and there will always be hope because of God’s immeasurable love, grace, and mercy that has been extended to us; the broken people that we are. But I refuse to sugar-coat things; to write simply of overcoming, recovery, etc without having displayed the darkness that desperately needed the light that WILL redeem me and CAN redeem others should they choose to believe it and live their lives in such a way. Does any of this make sense?

      1. If we fail to show our humanity, humanity will fail to recognize us. God bless you my friend you truly have a gift to touch the multitudes! -WATW

  2. btw, thanks for the prompting to write those reviews for the Kind Pages! I’m only half through(almost) my hands are exhausted and it is not a small job to say such wonderful things about so many people you hardly know, but I am LOVING the challenge so honestly thanks for the gentle nudge to go ahead and get it done! Love ya man! You are a great source of enlightenment and encouragement! God Bless -WATW

    1. You’re welcome! I figured it’d be a fun way for you to use your gift to encourage others. PLUS, it’ll give new visitors to your site a better idea of what you think of everyone’s pages, etc; possibly leading them to exactly what the Holy Spirit wants them to see! 🙂

  3. Awesome post! Please remember that we also need to forgive ourselves of our short comings just as we are called to forgive others. If we confess our sins, repent and know that Christ has forgiven us, then who are we to continue to hold ourselves guilty? I’m not saying that we are to excuse our short comings but just as holding grudges against others robs us of joy and peace, so does holding grudges against ourselves. It took me a long time to learn this lesson, and I am still learning. Romans 8:1 says “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” Those of us in Christ are no longer condemned but are forgiven and set free from the bonds of sin and condemnation by God’s most gracious gift, the sacrifice of Jesus Christ.

    Romans 8:31-34 says ” 31What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? 33Who shall bring any charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies. 34 Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died—more than that, who was raised— who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us.” Knowing this, when I continue to condemn myself for my short comings I am in a sense saying that, “I messed up so much that I should not be forgiven.” God showed me that having this mindset was actually a form of pride as I am setting “my” standards for myself above His.

    It is important for us to recognize and confess sins and to see the areas that need improvement in our lives. Rather than to beat ourselves up over it, I believe we should be taking these to God in prayer and confessing our weakness to overcome them on our own and ask for His help. I have been doing this myself and have found that I have had more peace and joy in God, my faith in Him has grown. He has been helping me in many areas of my life that I now realize because of unforgiveness toward myself, I was trying to fix on my own. There are areas I still struggle with but I remind myself to put it back in His hands and leave it there! He will sort it out and guide me in what to do. When there is something that I am not dealing with that I should be, I am convicted by the Holy Spirit (not condemned) and I pray and confess it. When sense I God is prompting me to do something and I am learning to quickly obey Him even when I don’t understand the “why”.

    Sorry my reply is so long winded. I wanted to encourage you that God knows our weakness and that he never intended for us to overcome them on our own but with His help. When we are convicted of sins and short comings, we confess, repent, receive forgiveness from Christ and must remember to forgive ourselves!

    In Christ’s ❤
    Elizabeth =-)

  4. Hey Jay!
    I wanted to come pray for you for this weekend, don’t know whats up on your end but this is what God sent me to do so here goes…

    Father God I come today and cover my Brother Justin in prayer over his circumstances. Lord his heart is wholy devoted to you and his passions are truly fuled by your calling of his life to be a shepheard of your people. Holy Spirit be his defender when the one who comes to take his life is breathing down his neck. Protect my brother’s thought from the poison of the enemy who ony wishes to leave him in ruins. Lord guide him to find your heart in the passage of scripture recorded in Matthew 5:30 where you teach us about the road to hell being paved with good intentions, Lord I had to learn this lesson the hard way please shine your light a step sooner for Justin. Set a guard over his heart Lord and keep him safe from all that would distract him to the right or the left of your chosen path for him. Show Justin more of you in the middle of him Lord, and guide him with the still small vioce echoing loudly in his ears. Open his eyes to let see and ears to let him hear you say “Go this way”.
    I ask this and pray in Jesus’ name
    God bless you,Justin, my Brother,you are loved by me too…
    ps, sorry about the size of the comment, didn’t think you’d mind too much. Please don’t feel like you have to post it, this was just for your heart, do with it what you will. 🙂

    1. Thank you very much! I cherish this prayer and ask that you’d continue praying it over the course of this weekend. I’ll be spending a lot of time examining my heart and seeking the LORD’s will over my life right here, right now. I’m no longer content to simply control my own life but dying to oneself is proving to be far more difficult than I expected and the spiritual warfare that can occur within my heart and thoughts is very real. God’s so faithful though…and I have faith that He will continue to pull me through the current storms into beautiful rays of sunshine in His due time! God bless you!

  5. Justin, great post! I totally agree with you when you talk about being REAL and not faking it. Many Christians live as if they have God all figure out. In my opinion, God is too great to be figured out. We are limited beings who are still learning about him and life in general. Keep up the good work!

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